Balance

Our life seems so extremely busy and hectic.
I wonder if taking 10 minutes a day for introspection will help, hurt, or be unnoticed.
Or, more likely, impossible to keep up.

M high school is closing in June. We have to find a new home. This is hard when the current school is beloved, excellent and 3 blocks from home.

X is our exchange student. He's a junior in high school. He works hard at school and excels. We had hoped P would work with him on language stuff, but that isn't happening. M isn't actually happy with the deal, but she's very accepting.

C's job with EvilBank is going well. It's hard and challenging, and I think he's doing well. I'm still having issues with job uncertainty and money questions. Our goals are diverging more and I find that quite distressing. I can't decide if I should work harder at changing his opinion, or get more comfortable / accepting with his preferences.
We're in such good shape compared to so many, I feel guilty to complain / worry.
But I still do.

How much of the chaos of daily life is behind my nightmares and insomnia. It's almost as though if I just stay up late enough / get up early enough, I can get enough done. Except I can't.

I'm trying to reach the serenity that I need for happiness. It's not there, and hasn't been for more than three years. I still find joy and amusement every day, but they seem like isolated incidents, rather than the underlying bedrock of my experience.